Loving you drowned me. -Diadem
Nneoma you translate feelings. Every word you pen reverberates. It bares my soul, makes me wonder if you’ve seen into it. -Diadem
I didn’t just fall in love you engraved your name in my soul. Loving you drowned me. - Diadem .
Diadem is more expressive now… but still not my fav. -Barbie as narrator .
Diadem’s POV
Staring at Nneoma, I exhale.This is going to be a long night,I mutter.
Nneoma, you have the wrong impression of me. I’m sorry for blocking you on social media. I was scared of losing my grip on you. I get confused when it comes to you. One moment I want you, the next I settle for friendship.
You make me lose control. I say one thing and do another. I push you away when all I want is to draw you closer.
I still hate that you stole my narrative told our story publicly without letting me speak for myself. That stripped away all my defenses, Nneoma. It hurt. It was gut-wrenching. It drove me crazy.
You live rent free in my head. No one comes close to you. I notice everything you do. I watch from the shadows.
I didn’t just fall in love you engraved your name in my soul. Loving you drowned me. And when you gave it back, it scared me. I knew how much I’d have to let go of to keep you close, and I wasn’t ready. So I chose a love that was safe and beautiful instead of deep and unraveling like ours.
I got jealous seeing you with other men, or imagining your words holding their hearts. You don’t just write, Nneoma you translate feelings. Every word you pen reverberates. It bares my soul, makes me wonder if you’ve seen into it.
I’ve said this before, but I love you. I’m sorry it took this long. If you’re here, and I’m here, then fate brought us together. We’re entwined, woven into each other’s souls. We carry tales of each other in our hearts.
Nneoma gasps. She tries and fails to wipe her tears away.
I ache to wipe them myself, but I can’t. She gave me restrictions. Nneoma is standing on business. I can’t mess this up. Yet I can’t stand to see her cry.
why I love you Major ft Nstasia
Nneoma’s POV
I have no words. I just let the tears fall.
This is why I avoid being in closed spaces with you we get too vulnerable.
Diadem, I don’t know how to respond. I love Wale a lot. I’ve had to remove you from my mind and weaken the hold you had on me.
Maybe fate is aligning us, but maybe it’s just showing us why we can’t be together.
I’m glad therapy is helping. You’re talking now, which is good. The Diadem I knew would rather shave his head than talk about feelings. Honestly, I waited for this moment. I held on. I waited. But you never came.
You made me crazy for loving you. You said all kinds of things, Diadem. I don’t know what to do with all this now.
He asks, Aren’t you being too harsh?
I don’t think I am. You hurt me. I had to move on against my will. You broke the camel’s back.
And I was already in transition. I lost everything. I was forced to see people through a new lens. I entered rooms where silent messages were passed about me. You could smell the hatred from miles away.
I became paranoid. Self-conscious. It ate me up. I strained myself because I didn’t know who was who. I lost myself and never got to mourn her.
I suffered attacks. I spent almost two months in bed.
I can’t trust you with my heart again. You broke it before. You’d do worse now. I can’t go back there. I worked hard to get here. I just can’t.
Diadem says, “But…”
Barbie as Narrator
Omg…Sniffs. This is so sad.Sniffs again.
I have no words. Diadem, sorry Nneoma can’t go back there. Abeg oooooh.
Mehn, can this chapter just end? I prefer her elsewhere. She and Diadem look like they’re staring into each other’s souls, baring it all out.
Therapy is doing wonders for them. Diadem is more expressive now… but still not my fav.